So yesterday my sister told me she is moving to Arizona. That is great for her because my other sister and mom and cousins live there. It is sad for me as it is my last immediate family member (besides my nephew) to leave Chicago. I am happy for her because this is what she wants. But it has brought all kinds of mixed emotions about change, not having family around, feeling abandon in some weird way.
I mean it is nice to be able to call your sister up and say "hey meet me for coffee" or "you want to go shopping" or "come on over I'll make dinner". Just knowing there is someone there who has a history with you. No one can take the place of your family. I mean we all have good friends that are wonderful. I don't know if this is just me or if other people do feel this way. But I like knowing my family lives in the same state. Of course they are all in closer proximity when we are in California. But it is a loss and an ending of an era to me.
Initially I wanted to curl up and stay in bad and have a pity party today. But of course my dogs won't let me do that and neither will my husband. Actually it is a perfect day for a pity party, overcast, looks like it will rain...a great day to stick your head under the covers.
But instead, I'll probably clean out a kitchen cabinet and get rid of all those bad carbs I have loaded up on this week for some unknown reason. The half bag of doritos, chips, and chocolated covered pretzels need to go bye bye. I would rather have them go than my sister.
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